Bryan

Well my mom has been gone about three weeks and so far everything is fine; minus that incident with Leah. At first it was pretty weird having the room to myself and her not coming in at around eight to go to bed. I got over that pretty fast and now it's just kind of cool being on my own. Yeah, I miss her and everything. It'd be nice to talk to her over coffee or the Sunday paper but I don't miss me as much as I thought I would. Not to say that she's not appreciated but I am pretty independent. I guess all those years of being lazy just translated to her thinking I couldn't do anything by myself. I haven't starved to death yet and I'm still alive so I think I'm doing pretty good. I feel bad though because she's taking this a lot harder than I am. She's ready to come home and she's telling me she misses me but I don't miss her as much. I'm feeling a bit guilty but I can't deny that being on my own is a bit nice. Everyone just leaves me alone and I can go to bed when I want to. By that I mean that if I want to dance until 2 am or stay up and do whatever or whoever there isn't another person in my room stopping me. It's gonna be hard to get used to things how they used to be. I just wish the two of us could live on our own but I know that isn't a posibility. Not in Vegas at least.
In other news I got my report card. Drum roll please....straight motherfucking As! WooHOO! I have never done that before. EVER! I'm so damn proud. But now because I got straight As first semester I'm damned and determined to get them second semester. But it's getting a little harder. In all classes. Mr. Winkler is moving really fast and he's really cracking down on tardies and absences. So much for ditching to have naked sex while my mom's gone. And if I feel like I miss Chemistry I'll be lost beyond reason because I am just beginning to understand things in there. Crisp is the same old Crisp. Naive. Easy. A bore. Sweeney however. I'm so pissed at him tonight. We're moving really fast now in that class, that's not why I'm pissed, and we had a test today. We heard about last week and got the review yesterday. Everyone had the same amount of time to prepare. But oh no...not Alana. She wasn't ready so she went crying to Sweeney to let her take it the next day....AND HE SAID YES! What the hell? It wasn't like everyone else in the class couldn't have used more study time. Like we weren't also unprepared. Does he have no morals? I noticed this last semester. He said at the beginning of the year that all chapter work was due at the test and he wouldn't take it after. No exceptions. I as well as everyone else took him on his word...but how is it that he took Alana and Ronalds work from chapter 8 when we were on chapter 17? It bugged me but not as bad as today. I was so fucking angry because he just let her slide. I lost a lot of repsect for him today because of that. It's like he lets the kids slide when he shouldn't. And it's not that she's so busy because I'm in the same class and what she does is spend her time doing either A) other homework for another class B)talking to Ebony and Stacey about Student Council or bitching about some high school politics or C) sleeping. It's bullshit! That really pisses me off because I and everyone else bust their ass to get shit done and take the test and he just lets her slide.
Okay...enough of that. I saw our final selections for the show this year. Ballet is an all pink chiffon number. It's really pretty but it's...pink. Really pink. I think it'll look nice on stage. I've become on of Ms. Heather's favorites because I work hard. That class has become a piece of cake. It's basically me demonstrating with Chelsea and everyone else getting yelled at. ERIKA!!! EMMMA!!!! That's what usually can be heard through class. But if everyone can get it together we should have a nice number. Jazz is really cool this year. It's a bike unitard with fringe and spats for boots. I love it. And tap is a purple one shoulder dress. Hip Hop should be some Adidas thing knowing Missy. She probally won't know until May. Most likely an Adidas sweatsuit. I can't wait until this Saturday, actually I think I can't wait but right now I'm not sure. I have to announce to the parents that I'm the one doing the routine with Ms. Doreen's guidance. I'm scared because I'd rather have the 5-6 class. There's just too many in the 3-4 that don't listen and have no clue but that's a different story. I guess I'll take Tommy's advice and "break them like a horse". LOL. We'll see....

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII got my fucking car back hell yeah that fucking kicks fucking donkey ass........................FUCK YEAH

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well lets see its been awile sence i have updates heres whats going on.......lets see my lifes been a living hell its like the fucker named god is out to get me its been nothing but bad event after bad even well ill start it off....umm like two weeks ago that monday i had a playoff game, we ended up winning the game like 35 to 18 i think....all was good that win sent our team to the championship game......anyways i come home barly able to walk like after all my games......and i come home to my step dad in my face he ends up breaking down my door when im changing out of all my football gear and saying all this fucking shit like fuck my sports fuck my school fuck my girlfriend, that i have no fucking respect for this fucking house, that this house is more important than my college more important than me graduating next year, saying hella shit how i dont do anything well you know what i do shit i have school, a shit load of homework, than i got track practice, football practice, i also have go to work and work 30 hours a fucking week because he said for me to get a job on top of all this other shit im having to do. he's the one who told me to get a job you have no idea how many night i have cried myself to sleep because i dont want to wake up in the fucking moning. I'v havent been home cuz i have been doing everything to try to make you and my mom happy. you tell me to do something i do it you tell me i should get a job i do it you tell me i should play sports i do it you told me to go to school and get good grades i do it i have a fucking 3.2gpa on top of everything i never miss school the onely time i ditch is to fucking do homework, to finish a project that i couldnt finish the night befor cuz i had a game or i had to work. im never late i dont do anything wrong. im taking college classes im doing all this fucking shit for you. not for me i dont injoy this shit do you think that i injoy putting my body through all this pain. some monings i cant even walk cuz my bodys taking such a beating try to keep up. i could barly walk up stairs now cuz of all this stress and punishment im putting on my self. just so you could be happy.................anyways yeah enough of that so i ended up leaving my house for about a week for everything to calmb down o yeah befor my game also my dads car was stolen so i never got to see him i saw him for like ten mins. that he was out here. when he came out here to see me. so yeah.....i was already pissed off because that. than art just added onto it...... and didnt even give a fuck about my team making it to the championship game. so tuesday i had my big ass project due for my us history class... this was the one project that could of failed me for the quarter but anyways seeings i left/kicked out of my house i didnt have any of my school stuff so i didnt have anything tht i was suppose to bring for my project but think got it was a group project or else i would of been fucked. wensday i had to comehome and have a little actully a long talk with my mother. who didnt even bother to deffend me in the arggument bet/ me and art so yeah. thursday i had my championship game well go to turn out that my most important game of my life my first champiopnship game out of 100's that i playend in. durring the second quaarter i ended up getting hit and taking down in my knee by like three people so yeah i was side lined for the rest of the game...i was on cruches for about a week cuz of that hit come to later find out that now i have to have surgery and i cant go to football camp cuz i cant bind my knee so yeah im just loving life. but because i hurt my knee i couldnt drive my car home i had to drive my moms car but that very next day i go to take athena out and guess what happend next i guess my wallet that never left my mothers car got lost or some thing now my wallet had my driver lisence and my health card and my social security card in it thats all gone along with my pay check which was over 200 dollers that i had in my wallet so yeah i wasnt too happy about that....than i try for like a week to find out my result of my x rays of my knee than i had to wait two more weeks to get in to have a doctor tell me that im going to most likly need to have surgey on my knee......so yeah i could be out from anywhere from 6weeks to 4 months with out sports so im just one fucking happy camper right now......but at least schools almost out but im done im starting to get tyired of typing im going to .........later

ummmmmmmm lets see its been a wile sence iv updated this thing but now i wont have a problem singing in cuz we got a new comp this week............its a nice one too nothing like that old ass pice of shit one that we use to have or actully we still have it but you get what i mean ayways ummmm im not sure when my last entry was so yeah its been over a year for me and my girlfriend athena to im really stoked about that...... iv been busy ass hell lately im playing three sports track, football, and softball whenever i got tuesdays free for the games. im also working not a little ceasars pizza the jobs ok im starting to get to know everyone so its becoming funner to work there. so yeah pluse i got a full ride scollor ship to nevada state college so i dont have a fith and a sixth period durring those hours i take my college core classes and there dual credit so that way i dont have to take a english class next year all i have to take is a goverment class which im taking that in summer school so after summer school ill have enough credits to graduate already im not going to leave my school early though. and o yeah cuz of that i only have to got to college for two years than im able to get my dagree so yeah thats bad ass....so with school,work,sports,college,and a grilfriend whos stuburn as hell im busy but its fine with me im able to do it all i like being busy but sometimes it would be nice to have some alone time or sometime to be able to sit down and think im going so fast that i dont have anytime for myself all my time goes into everything or someone that im doing...lol....but im going to go o shit yeah i guess my dad is going to be out here in like two more weeks so thats awsome too but i doubt that he'll show up cuz he's been telling me that he well come out this next week bu t hes been telling me this for like the past two months so whatever i just cant wait to see him but ok im going to go now for sure okkkkk ill update some other time........later

ok well lets see here sence my last update nothing really hasnt happend....wait that would be a lie...oops...o well umm lets see what has been going on....ummmm i some how got talked into doing track again this year and i dont know how the hell that happend but its kool i want my white letter for track...and i think that i got talked into playing football again next year and i dont know how the hell that happend but my dission still isnt finial ill most likely make up my mind like the day befor hell week starts...but i might as well do it cuz if i do that than ill have two black letters and one white letter for my lettermans jacket.. and i might even get another letter for wresteling next year cuz i think that im going to do that next year also.....ummm the 11th of march was mine and athenas one year anervirsry soooooo HELL MOTHER FUCKING YEAH that was probaly one of the happiest days of my life was the 11th... we didnt do anything all that fancy i ended up taking her out to the airport to wach the airplanes land and take off....than after that we went to applebees to eat dinner than we came back to my place and fell asleep....other stuff happend but im not at librity to say what happend.....lol.....ummm than this past weekend i had to go and work at the speed way for the nascar races working there was really fucking boring and it wasnt work a weekend but durring the race i got to get about an hour off to wach about 10 laps of so and get lunch durring the race i called athena from my moms cell and as the cars flew right by i held up the phone as the past right by for her...and babe next year ill buy tickets to it and we well go next year..... and last friday was the powder puff game that was fun i was dressed up as a cheerleader and i had to wear a skirt and make up and the hole 9 yards than after school i had to preform at the assembly that was very intersting than at the game i couldnt cheer cuz i had to be up in the press box and help call plays from the press box using the radios....and thanks to all the great coaching from all the jr's. the jr's. kicked the sinors asses 18 to 7 bitches.....im proud of my girls but yeah thats all that has happend latly so im going to go

( and athena cheers to another year hopfully i love you with all my hart and theres no way to discribe how much i care for you i love you bye )

well today i didnt go to school i really didnt do anything all day except my homework i finished one of my papers and i my english 101 homework so i got that all out of the way ummm i tryed to do my math homework but i forgot how to do it so ill have to get help with it tomrrow but yeah i got most of my homework dont i think all i have left is my creative writing homework and math but my writing homework i could finish that tommrrow cuz i dont have that class tell friday ooo yeah i cleand my room a little bit today and hooked up my sisters cd player she gave me and o yeah i have my drivers test next week too so hopfully ill pass my drivers test that would be kool and o yeah i got a little trick that im going to pull on friday and i really hopes that she likes it i mean i know its not going to be all that much but i just hope she likes itbut other than that.....theres nothing really going on so ill update it when i get my licence

well the winter break is alnmost over today was the last day of the winter break that kind of sucks but i guess is time to get back to work cuz im starting to get kind of bored anyways over the break i went to my dads house and spent a week here wih him and my bro that was preaty cool cuz whenever i got out there i get to shoot pool which is something that i dont really get odo to offten out in vegas cuz im usely to busy i got back from my dads the day after x mas i was happy to be home umm nohin really happend tell new years eve when athena got home from her moms house i was really happy o see her i go to wach the fireworks with her and we also had a snow ball fight wile we were waiting for the fireworks to start that was fun ummm than i got to spend saterday with athena too that was awsome than i was supose o have a friend come into town today but i guess she didnt make it cuz she never called me but whatever um yeah right now im a athenas taking care of her cuz shes really sick i dont know how she got sick but im sure she ll be fine by tomrrow anyways im going to go ill update this hing here later.....peace

well im back from cali i had fun seeing my dad and my brother i got my brother high haha that was cool. anyways yeah x ma was good so far i got some nice stuff my bro got me three swords that comes with a stand that was kool so i added to my knife collection adn sword collection so that was kool i got a cd and a giant ass led zeppland poster from my sister i have no clue where the hell im going to hang that up at because i hav one just as big but its a metallica poster...but yeah other than going to cali notings going on..athenas is oput of town vitsiting her mom and dad thats kool i just miss her a lot i wish she could come home i miss her a lot but she well be home on friday and i have to drive her mom up to the airport on new years eve to pick her up i dont reallly wanna do that cuz i know how packed that airports going to be and i never really go to the airport but anyways i miss her and cant wait to see her and hug her and kiss her and mabe do something else to her if ya know what i mean wink wink ;)...lol but im going to o later

well its been a wile so here i go um saterday was 9 months for me and athena we went to the movies to see oceans 12 that was a really good movies than on sunday i had to go x mas shopping so we went to the indoor swap meet i got all my shopping dona and also addes to my knife collection so im happy....monday i didnt go to school i ditched and ended up getting cought cuz the fuck gay ass school i guess now calls your fucking house if you dont go to fucking school and they also said i have 8 absentes which thats fuckin not true i only have 3 at tops but anyways on monday athena and i also went to the house of blues to see PAPA ROUCH THE FUCKING KICK ASS IN CONSERT THERE HELLA BETTER THAN I THOUGHT THEY WOULD BE I GOTTA GO SEE THEM NEXT TIME THEY COME OUT TO VEGAS.. i payed for going to that i fell sleep in chemistry and i guess i was sleeping so good my fuckin teacher was all like wake him up to some kid and when the kid woke me up mr fullman said for me to grap my shit and go to the deans office i was like what the hell i he had a refurll already writin up and said here take this to the deans office but the refurll didnt have my name on it he just wanted me to take it down for anouther kid but anyways i gotta go ill update next month

Im done with all this bullshit i quit im tierd of everything im feed up with it i quit everything that i have ever busted my ass for im tired of busting my ass day after day after day after day after day after day ,im just tired of it i dont want anything to do with what i have been doing any longer its not worth it to me i quit and its over

well yesterday was mine and athenas 8 month anervisry thats was really kool now that you think about it, its like damn holy shit iv been with her for that long without eather one of us killing the other. i never would of thought 8 months ago thats i would still be with her and love her as much as i do now. but yeah 8 months together thursday was really good for me. anyways in other news i got a new game halo 2 that game kicks as but the ending to the game after you beat it fuckin sucks it ended up pissing me and adam we where like holy shit two or three years waiting for this but its ok that game still kicks ass. and my moms birthday is on sunday i still dont know what the hell im going to get her but i think that we are going out to brunch or something like that hopfully we could go out to eat with her and have her not to bring art cuz all me and my sister want is to go out for one meal without art cuz everywhere she goes he goes and all we want is some alone time with just our mom but anyways im just starting to piss myself off so im going to go ill update some other time.

hey athena thanks for being with me and puting up with me as long as you have i love you baby bye

lets see yesterday i didnt plan on going anywere but i get a call about 5 ant its tyler saying "bryan come trick or treating with me i want candy" i was like OK so we ended up trick of treating around his house than came back to my my house and went around here we didnt hit the mother load but its good enough for me i didnt even really want to go i just need the hell out of my fuckin house iv been cooped up in here not allowed to go anywere for about a week now so yeah thats why i went trick or treating but im not conplaning i had fun and got free candy im not even going to eat all of it i dont have the sweet tooth like i used to in years past but ther now you happy athena i updated and not u got something to read well im gonig to go ill see you later on today i love ya baby bye

well lets see im still sick as hell im starting to get a little better now that the doc has be preaty well druged up...they had to give me a shot the doc. gave me one twice or three time the dosage that the normaly give people so yeah hopefully ill be fine here in a couple of days i hope i well be cuz i really need to see athena though i cant kiss her for a little wile longer cuz i cant aford to get her sick too her mom well beat my ass cuz as much as her mom know she dosnt even think we kiss...lol....its the truth no joke but anyways im feeling better now i just hope it well be over with in a couple of more days im going to go and o yeah athena ill keep my promaise to you just have to what tell im feeling better and thanks baby for being there for me wile im feeling like shit i love you bye

well lets see im so fucking sick right now i havent ate or drank anything in about 2 days now i have had a fever of about 102/103 i couldnt get out of bed at all and on top of all that iv been throwing up for the past two days and its only been stomach acid cuz i havent been able to eat anything but yeah im going to the doctors here around 730 or so boy i hope that the doc well be able to fix me well im going back to bed later

ok well friday i ended up getting myself into some deep shit actully its not all that bad i just hate woundering about it waiting to find something out. being worried and waiting arnt the two best things to have on your mind when you stressed but anyways i think that everything well be fine i just hope i well know here for sure myself her soon well im gonna go later

well lets see right now i dont know how the hell im feeling right now im feeling so many diffrent emotions right now i mean im pissed im worried im scared im confuesed im like love sick i mean damn i really dont know what the hells wrong with me right now. iv been feeling like this ever sence this morning and i just really dont know what to do all i know is that this week has been really shity for me for every moment of happiness its been followed by something that ends up pissing me off its like nothing is going my way this week anything i want to happen happens but then all of a sudden my happiness is takin right out from under neath me and i just have had enough of it i just wish that i could just stay happy with out something happening and messing everything up but ok thats enought blabing im going to go.........later

Athena im really proud of u u kicked ass at your resideal sorry i couldnt go to the one tonight i promise ill make it up to you cuz i feel really bad that i couldnt go tonight i love ya bye

well lets see its been a wile sence i have updated this thing well nothins really been going on. i have been really busy with football and school so i really dont have very much free time. and whatever little free time i have i try to see athena as much as possable because of those of u who dont know she got into L.V.A. for this year and with her at L.V.A. its rea;;y hard for us to see eachother but im fine with that cuz lva is a really big thing for her and i mean it when i say im proud of her for getting in and going to lva i just wish we could see eachother more often than once or twice a week like we have been doing actully we are lucky that we have seen eachother twice this week cuz its really hard for us to find time for eachother but as long as we do see eachother im not conplaning but yeah other than that nothins really going on well im gonna go ill update this thing later.....later

well i got some bad news and some good. today was one of the worst days and one of the best days in my life. first the bad news well today carmona my coach he sent me down to jv so im no longer a varsity fooball player but he said to just go down to j.v. and if someone gets injerd or if they make it to the playoffs they well bring me back up to varsity otherwise just to stay down and help out the jv players and be one of there leaders which i could do that cuz he said that i well start next year as a sr. so thats ok with me it just sucks that im not varsity but hey im going to be a two way starter for the jv so i could do that and i might even get to run the ball a couple of times too the only thing that sucks about going down is that i gotta play center and i hate playin center i hate it but its kool ill play it if i have too ok well now for the good news (drum roll please)....lol ok well guess what im not single anymore see isnt that some good news well it is for me anyways cuz me and athena got back together so yeah thats the good news well im gonna go ill update this thing later.....peace